The "Celestia" character is over. I got caught trolling too hard. I really love this place... it hurts... during this entire "Vacation" I just wanted to scream and tell everyone the truth. I wanted to be there for the subs I care about, I wanted to show off my editing skills, I wanted to interact with my friends on timeline... but it has to end. Before I leave, I'm gonna address a few things. I've always viewed this NSFW stuff as a way to be creative without the limitations of censorship. Posing for the camera with good angles/lighting/filters, writing stories/captions, video editing, tattoo/skin/background edits, photoshop, voice acting, generating AI art, or even drawing a piece from scratch. A lot of people post purely for horny reasons but I saw it as art. I'm sure many of the top NSFW accounts understand how fun and satisfying it can be to create NSFW content from an artist's PoV. My libido is low but I still enjoyed the space despite that because I was allowed to play a "larger than life" character and show off my editing skills. I didn't have to worry about being "family friendly" since it was an NSFW space and it allowed me to push things to the limit. I enjoyed what I did, I enjoyed making my "art", I enjoyed domming a few cuties, and I enjoyed making some genuine friends. Most of these close friends knew the truth behind my "Celestia" character, that it was all played up on timeline to entertain and troll the masses. However, my account has grown to the point where I can't be "edgy" anymore without people taking things too seriously. Normally, when people would get offended, start drama, or randomly mention me I handled it in 1 of 2 ways:
1. I would ignore them and keep doing what I enjoy
2. I would poke fun at them by subtweeting them in one of my edits and then move on

I've always found the idea of addressing drama seriously on timeline to be cringe. I don't think my followers want to read drama on timeline, they don't follow me for that. For things that were more serious, I would take it to DMs. Making serious call out posts is cringe, forcing people to block other creators is cringe, and escalating things to real life threats is cringe (also sometimes illegal). So when I found out that behind the scenes there was a femdom account attempting to send people to my family's house, it made me extremely uncomfortable. This femdom has nearly double my followers and was spending their findom money trying to hurt my family. The idea that another femdom disliked me enough that they would endanger the lives of my family (which includes children) is fucking disturbing. I never thought it would escalate past name calling or cringe threads. As far as my safety goes, I'll be fine, I have money and I already plan on getting my own place in December. The problem is, the damage has already been done. Children don't deserve to be hurt because I decided to post edgy stuff on NSFW Twitter. To make things even more complicated, my ex-boyfriend who knows me irl got involved. Now, some of you might know my ex-boyfriend, but I'm not going to say their name because the goal of this post is not to directly call anyone out or harass people. The point of this post is to give clarity as to what the fuck is happening. What I will say though, is that my ex-boyfriend is involved in a school shooting plot. I don't want to go into the details because again, I'm not trying to let anyone identify who I'm talking about. I took steps to protect my identity from my ex-boyfriend after we broke up, but they won't leave me the fuck alone. If my ex-boyfriend shows up with a gun and attempts to kill me or my family that's not something I want to deal with. Police reports were filed over this entire situation and I had to hand over my twitter/discord accounts (so yeah feds have all my DMs now, if I wansn't supposed to share that my bad lol). I've looked into contacting lawyers to file a restraining order against my ex-boyfriend but since I plan on moving soon I don't even know if that's necessary anymore. I know some people will be happy reading this because they dislike me or my "Celestia" character, but this situation doesn't just involve me. The group that the femdom was working with planned on going after other people after they "got rid of me". The people they planned on targeting included:
- Meiji
- Cherry
- Aini
- Stocking
- ButterflyBlacked
- Tragicwhiteness
- Dante
- Soph
- LimpLuna
- Jenjam
- Vickan
- Linnie
- Toka
- mods/members from the Blacked x Waifu discord server (I've been banned from that server for over 10 months lmao)
- and a few of my other subs/friends
For the record, I don't know all of the people I listed. In fact, I'm pretty sure some of them dislike me or have me blocked. I can't say if these are all good or bad people, but the point I'm trying to get across is that even if you dislike me, these people are in danger because of the actions of the femdom that dislikes me. Even if it wouldn't result in anyone's death or serious injury, it most certainly would result in a lot of these people getting harassed or targeted. I'm doing everything in my power to prevent the situation from escalating, but it seems the only viable solution is for me to stop using my account. I think most people in my situation would've kept their mouth shut and deleted their account, but you all deserved to know the truth. Things would be so much simpler if I didn't give a fuck about anybody, but deep down I care. I care a lot. I care about my family, I care about my friends, I care about people in the scene, and I care about my followers. I wish I was stronger, it feels like a total failure on my part for not being able to compose myself in a way where I could focus on this stuff while continuing to make banger content and make those around me feel cared for and loved for. Even with the lives of my family being threatened, abandoning friends and subs for weeks while I tried to fix things felt fucking awful, and when people kept sending me money while I was on my "vacation" I hated it. I wasn't able to spend quality time with any of you, I wasn't able to make commissions, I wasn't able to answer DMs. That's why I made the post in mid October asking people to stop sending me money. I still appreciate everything you've all given me and will try to stay in contact with a few close friends/subs, but all of this puts me in a difficult situation. At heart, I'm an entertainer, and all I ever wanted to do was entertain, but if everyone knows the "Celestia" persona was a character and I continue posting, it feels fake. It ruins immersion for me and it probably ruins the immersion for a lot of you too. For those that know Danganronpa, Celestia is a character that is known as the "Ultimate Gambler" (which I enjoy) but she also bluffs a lot. Because of her ability to bluff, she earned the title of "Queen of Liars". I lied a lot to play this character on twitter. In the video game, Celestia also gets 2 people killed (this is where the 2 "wins" claim originally came from as well) but it's all a work of fiction. That's not to say I didn't enjoy my time on here, I do have a kinky sadistic side as well, but I also lied for the sake of publicity, entertainment, and to protect myself. I mean for christ sake my bio literally said "Propaganda Producer" in it, of course I lied to the masses, it was propaganda. I successfully got over 1,000 followers per month (which was my original goal with my persona so I'm happy I was able to maintain that). This might not make sense right now but if you continue to read I hope by the end it'll all make sense and give some closure. I would like to address all the lies, controversies, and frequently asked questions about myself as well as the character I was playing

Q: Are you transgender?
A: Yes, but I don't think it should matter. I never wanted to make being transgender a part of my character. I never made "Transdom" content, never talked about being trans on timeline, and I never did TNWO. The closest content to that was "futa" or "girlcock". Even my "pinkpilling" content was never about me being trans, it was about pinkpilling my subs. If you don't believe me you can search "from:CeCeFem" and type any related terms (such as trans/transgender) or you can look at any of my pinkpill edits and see that it was never about me being transgender, it's just feminization but with HRT involved. In real life, I don't tell people I'm transgender, heck, I don't even tell people I'm female. I prefer to let people make their own judgment on that. Through the time I've put into my appearance, people irl assume I'm female. I wouldn't really care either way though, being female is just a part of who I am, not my entire identity. It's like the color of my skin or my hair, it's just a part of me, it's not what defines me and isn't that important. If you have pride in being trans, more power to you, but for me, I don't have pride in it. There's a reason I never put "transgender" items on my Wishlist/Throne, I don't want being transgender to be a part of my personality. I don't want to shove the fact that I'm transgender down people's throats, to me, that defeats the entire purpose of being trans. Maybe my opinion on this will change in the future but in real life I don't even want people to know I'm transgender. Me "passing" isn't a sexual thing either. I have a girlfriend and I'm a neet, I don't go to clubs and try to "trap" random dudes, I'm not trying to trick anyone into doing anything. My body isn't perfect, but my current face, hair, and voice are good enough that I don't make people uncomfortable and I'm happy with that. If you don't believe me I don't give a shit, I don't have to prove anything to anyone. Enough photos of me have already been leaked, it's time to move on

Q: Did you lie about your age?
A: Yes, but it was for my safety. I'm sorry for lying about my birthday, I wasn't a minor when I created CeCeFem. Like I stated before, I was afraid of my ex-boyfriend because of the school shooting stuff and I wanted a way out of the relationship with him. At the time, lying about my age seemed like the only way to escape the relationship without him trying to retaliate against me. Unfortunately, my ex-boyfriend knew about my CeCeFem account so I had to continue the lie online so they would believe the lie. By revealing the truth to you all, I am 100% endangering myself because it is very likely my ex will try to harm/harass me over lying about my age. I expect they will leak my personal information or work together with people who want to kill me. There's also a chance they show up at my family's house with a gun in an attempt to kill me or my family (which includes children). I do not condone or encourage minors to participate in NSFW communities. I realize this lie caused drama but I'm hoping you can all forgive me under these circumstances. This also means a lot of the stupid claims people made about my age are bullshit. Nobody "groomed" me because I was already an adult and I was already transgender before I started CeCeFem. Me getting banned from the Blacked x Waifu Discord for "being a minor" doesn't make sense because I was an adult the entire time, that server doesn't allow minors and bans them on sight. Nobody who dated, subbed, or interacted with me is a pedophile because I was an adult the entire time during CeCeFem. Please stop tossing pedophile allegations at random people because I lied about my age. During the lie I never played into my age in any of my edits or my posts, I never tried to grow or profit from my age. I am deeply sorry for lying about this and hope you can all forgive me given the circumstances

Q: Are you responsible for the "propaganda" threads on 4chan's /gif/ board?
A: No, I got a curiouscat question about /gif/ and I played into it because I found the idea funny. I've never made a thread on 4chan before, I've mostly just lurked a few boards, barely posting if at all. The edit I made that makes it seem like propaganda threads were being "shilled" on /gif/ is bullshit. A lot of those threads were faked using photoshop and inspect element. Some of the threads in that edit were real threads but I did not make them. There is no CeCe psyop Discord shilling porn threads, please take your meds. Sorry to the people who hate me for that lie and sorry to the people who thought the lie was hot but it was all fake

Q: Is there a "CeCe Discord"?
A: Technically yes, I do have a Discord server, but it's probably not what you think. It's just a place where I chatted with a few friends. The number of people in the server has always been 7 or fewer people at any given time. I thought about making a real Discord server but it was hard to find the time since I'm very picky about how I do things, similar to my art/edits. There was never any spamming/raiding/trolling, the entire server was just friends talking about random silly things like video games, memes, and sometimes porn. There are probably a few people who dislike me or thought the idea was hot so they pretended to be a part of my non-existent Discord community and talk about me in random places on the internet but I 100% mean it when I say that I never posted anything anywhere besides twitter and a few Discord servers. I also never encouraged anyone else to post about me on any other websites. I know some people who liked me trolled other communities under my name but I did not approve or condone that. If people use my name to troll or beg for attention I prefer owners and moderators of those communities to ban those people on sight or blacklist my name. I've seen people make threads about me on 4chan's /V/ and /LGBT/ board and I think the mods did a good job at deleting threads about me so I appreciate that

Q: Is your bio number real?
A: Yes, but I have since removed it. However, most of my bio number comes from selling uncensoreds/customs/commissions and having a whale sub. I do enjoy findom, but I didn't prey on vulnerable wagies and make them go to zero. I don't have enough free time to do that. I also prefer subs that are unique/fun and not just "paypigs" because I find that boring. This was all supposed to be a fun hobby for me, not a job

Q: Do you actually evade taxes?
A: I legally evaded taxes a little bit with gifts, gift cards, and crypto. That being said, I plan on paying taxes this year and doing things the "right" way (IRS you can stop reading now)

Q: Are the blackmail folders real?
A: The folders are real, but the "blackmail" part is kink only (besides 1 person, which I will address later in a CSGO question). I've never posted anyone's personal info on timeline or sent out blackmail emails/phone calls. That shit requires too much work. I think most dommes can agree that it's a waste of time to send out emails or make phone calls, it's simply not worth the time. Sorry if this ruins the immersion of the kink. The sad part about this situation is that I have the personal information on a lot of the people who are currently attempting to harm me/my family. Like, the femdom that is targeting me? I know her address, I know her apartment number, I know who she is, but I never escalated things to real life threats. It's fucking cringe. Same with ex-boyfriend, I know literally everything about him. His address, his parent's addresses, his legal name, his face photo, his nudes, fucking everything and I never posted any of it. I don't want to share any of that crap, I just wanted him to leave me the fuck alone. Posting people's folders wouldn't solve anything, it would just make me a hypocrite. At this point I'm just keeping the information in case I have to take legal action and lawyer up. I'm not saying any of this as a threat, I'm just explaining the situation. At this point I'm also legally not allowed to dispose of the content inside the folders of my ex-boyfriend and the femdom targeting me even if I wanted to. As for everyone else's folders (friends, subs, anyone else I dated, etc.) I will be deleting your folders within a week unless you specifically DM me and ask me to keep them

Q: Do you blackmail your subs into taking HRT?
A: No. Nobody is being blackmailed into taking HRT. It was a "4chan Reiko cult" meme I played into because people found it hot. Basically, I trolled too hard and now tinfoil schizos think it's a real grooming cult. When people accused me of being a "groomer" I started using the word in kink for subs of mine that are on HRT because I thought it was funny. I tried to turn a false accusation into something positive because addressing false allegations seriously seemed cringe and pointless. Those who dislike me wouldn't believe what I said anyway. My subs are all adults and a lot of them were already on HRT before talking to me. The only exception you can call me out for was a "chud" sub that I teased after they entered my HRT giveaway but I know this individual wanted to start HRT on their own. The sub was just living in a location that made it difficult. I supported cuties on their HRT journey but NOBODY WAS BEING BLACKMAILED. Same with the HRT tribute photos I asked some subs to take, nobody was forced into that. A few people took photos of their HRT with my Twitter open. Most of those people were already taking HRT before talking to me and a lot of them before I even made my account. I just asked them to take the photo because it made things seem devious for my edit. Call it a "sinister undertones" moment

Q: Do you make and send HRT to your subs?
A: No, I do not personally mail HRT nor do I DIY make it myself. I paid for one of my subs HRT because they won an HRT giveaway. Everyone else who "takes HRT for me" buys it on their own and it's just a kink/funny thing for them to say it's "for me". The sub that won my giveaway is an adult, just like all my other subs

Q: Are your "wins" real?
A: No, I didn't kill anyone and I didn't make anyone commit suicide. If I did, I would be in jail. I've already explained this to the feds and they know it was all a stupid kink/joke. In fact, all of my DMs have been compromised by feds on Twitter and Discord so they know I've done nothing illegal (feds spying is another reason why I'm done using my accounts). For my followers who believed I was getting people to kill themselves, I'm sorry if you found that hot but it was just a part of the "Celestia" character I was playing, nobody died

Q: Were you gonna force [REDACTED] to give you their CSGO skins and then "win"?
A: This question won't make sense to most people but it's still important. The answer is NO. I was playing a character and that shit is taken out of context. I was protecting my friend and secretly talking to them in a Discord call the entire time. They were scared for their life and I was going to help them fake their death if they needed to. Thankfully that didn't have to happen. I care about them a lot and have been blackmailing them into not committing suicide. I understand this might seem crazy, but from my PoV I have been doing a good thing. They're actually the only person that I've ever blackmailed. I've heard people say there should be pro-choice for suicide but I don't agree with that plus it's illegal. So, I blackmailed them into staying alive. If anything, it actually makes the entire situation where people think I'm a murderer funny because in reality, I've been doing everything in my power to prevent someone from taking their own life for the past few months now

Q: Do you believe in the BNWO?
A: No, it's always been a kink. Sometimes it's fun to play into but 99% of the time I avoid directly mentioning the term "BNWO" in my edits and just stuck to "Blacked". In fact, my old pinned used to say "Raceplay" but I sort of trapped myself into posting only "Blacked" for that. I've made "WMAF" and "Bleached" content before, but I didn't post it on my account because I was afraid I would get banned just like my oomfie Sylvee did. For those who don't know, Sylvee was an HMV creator who mostly posted Blacked content, but one day they decided to post Bleached HMVs. They ended up getting mass reported and banned. BNWO people would've got mad at me for posting that content and the Bleached community would've got mad at me because I'm seen as a "Blacked" account. Honestly, I fucked up. I should've done a better job early on at making myself seem like a general porn account and not a "Blacked" account. I was willing to do niche/extreme kinks but it also limited me a little bit in terms of what content I could post without major backlash. I still tried my best to spread my content out with pinkpilling, findom, snuff, gamba, and shitposts but ultimately people would accuse me of being a "BNWO" account. In reality, I wanted my account to be about my character, domming, and editing skills, not about Blacked or "BNWO"

Q: Are you racist?
A: Okay, I'm just gonna be honest here... Yes, I'm a little racist, but it's just edgy humor and the use of slurs during fetish/kink. I don't like to take stuff seriously online. In real life I don't hate or disrespect people over their physical characteristics, that would be immature and shallow

Q: Are you a nazi?
A: No, I'm not. I like the fashion, same with Imperial Japan, WW2, and 3-Axis in general, but I'm not a Nazi. I used to be a part of Nazi femboy communities when I was younger but as I grew up I stopped caring about the ideology. All the nazi stuff as CeCeFem was done for aesthetic/trolling purposes. Again, my humor is edgy and I don't like to take things seriously online

Q: Was the "cutelilpuppydoll4" twitter account real?
A: No, I never talked to them. That account was created by a group trying to harass me. I was told the specific person who made it was named "Grace". On Discord their name is Sillyboi🖤 (dumbsillyboio). Grace pretended to be 15 years old on that account, put my handle in the account's bio, and then talked to a minor about me. Screenshots of Grace talking to the minor were then shared trying to paint me in a negative light. I don't know why this Grace person dislikes me, as far as I know, I've never even talked to them during my entire time as CeCeFem. What they did was extremely inappropriate and disgusting. That being said, please do not harass or hunt anyone down over what I'm saying, I just want to provide the truth of the situation. I feel like it should've been obvious the account was fake, considering the fact that it was a brand new account and had zero followers. Anybody can easily make a new account and lie in an attempt to slander me. People who disliked me piled on it because it was finally something they could try using to make me look bad. The worst part about the fake allegation happening is I started getting a bunch of gross DMs over it, and I'm not talking about DMs from people who hate me, I'm talking about people who approved of the fake allegation and stuff like that. Like, legitimately it was gross stuff, legit pedophiles or people claiming to be minors. Real or fake I blocked and reported every account I saw claiming to be underage in DM requests. Ever since then, it has discouraged me from answering DMs for free out of fear that a real minor might be trying to message me. That's why I started only answering twitter DMs from well known accounts or people that sent an initial (money) first. It's sad but from my experience, the only people that have finsubbed for me are adults that have some sort of income. This is why I felt forced to start only answering the DMs of people who paid an initial fee, I didn't need or even want the money, but it made me feel safer messaging those people. I would also like to take the time to apologize to BlackedTwoB for accusing her of engaging in a conversation with a minor. Since I now know that the screenshots of Grace talking to someone were not of DMs of BlackedTwoB. Even though BlackedTwoB falsely accused me of a similar accusation, I am just at fault for attempting to turn the situation back on her when in reality neither of us had actually engaged with the fake 15 year old account. I do not believe BlackedTwoB is a pedophile and I'm sorry for falsely accusing her of such. From my point of view, it looked like she was the one messaging a minor account about me, but it turned out to be DMs created by this "Grace" person to try and slander me talking to someone else. Normally when situations like this occur in the NSFW space, I believe the appropriate reaction is to block and report accounts like this. It also takes about 5 seconds to DM someone and ask them "Hey, I saw a weird account talking about you and they claim to be a minor, what is that about?" to which they can reply "That's fucking weird, I don't know this account, I'll tell everyone to block and report it, thanks". I understand wanting to care and look out for victims in the NSFW space, but if you're an NSFW account I believe you have a responsibility to block and report all accounts that claim to be underage. I believe if you are an NSFW account, it is highly inappropriate to approach these accounts and attempt to interview them. Again, the best course of action is to block and report them. In the future, I hope social media platforms such as twitter provide a way for accounts to verify they're an adult. I was actually planning on making an OnlyFans account for age verification purposes only, but now that I plan to stop using my account I don't think it matters anymore. That being said the OnlyFans age verification is still a useful tool and I would recommend all findom accounts look into it for age verification purposes when interacting with subs. There is no room for minors in the NSFW space

Q: What was the "punishing cartographer" thing about?
A: It's a convoluted way of saying "ruining lolicon/pedo lives". Early in my findom journey, I was open to the idea of ruining the lives of "pedos" and taking all their money. The logic behind this is I didn't feel bad and didn't feel any remorse for taking all the money from people that were a piece of shit. I also only interacted with these people if it was 2D ONLY and if they were giving me enough money that I felt it was worth it. However, after growing big enough and talking to some other findoms about the morality behind it, I stopped doing it. I stopped because I didn't need the money and I didn't enjoy talking or interacting with these types of people. I never got around to making a new pinned post for my account so the "punishing cartographers" ended up staying in my pinned for a long time even though I had already stopped engaging with those types of people and was no longer doing anything related to that. I apologize for not removing or changing my pinned post sooner

Q: Did you make one of your subs cheat on their significant other during an irl meet?
A: No, I made a stupid joke about my sub giving me "head" when I met up with them at an anime convention. It was a joke, this never happened. Both of us were of age during the anime convention, we both had adult pass wristbands during late night events. The sub had a girlfriend at the time and I also had a girlfriend at the time. We never had sex. We didn't even see each other naked. All we did was hang out together at an anime convention

Q: Do your force your subs to cut themselves?
A: No, it was all consensual. For people who don't understand bloodplay, it is a real kink and yes, people do find it hot. Nobody was being forced into self-harming. Every sub that I've done bloodplay with wanted to do it on their own, and 9 out of 10 times the sub already had experience cutting for sexual pleasure and kink. My logic for doing bloodplay was if these people were going to cut themselves regardless because they find pleasure in it, why not do my name "CECE" instead of their normal cuts? I understand some people associate cutting and self-harm with depression, coping mechanisms, or mental health, but with my subs it's always been done as a consensual kink and I always offer aftercare if necessary. I also NEVER asked my subs to cut deep because I didn't want them getting seriously injured, plus, I personally think surface level cuts are cuter anyways

Q: Do you have any alternate accounts?
A: @CeCeFem is my only twitter account. Anyone else who claims to be me is lying or trolling. This includes going forward as I have no plans on opening new accounts on twitter ever again. CeCeFem is dead, please ignore anyone who attempts to impersonate me, I'm done with this space

Q: Were you [insert account here] in the past?
A: I don't want to talk about any of my past accounts because that would endanger me and a lot of them trigger PTSD. People have accused me of being multiple accounts in the past. I refuse to comment on the matter. Please respect that

And that's about it. I know some people will still hate me, maybe even more after I've said the truth, but this is how I prefer things to end. To my oomfies, subs, and followers, I hope you all continue to have fun in the NSFW space, I love you all